මෙන්න ඒ සත්යය කතාව ඔහුගේම වචන වලින්.
"I had a gay love for six years when i was in campus. He wanted to marry. I allowed. He wanted me to be his bestman. I did it. But can you imagine how difficult it was for me to spend time as bestman on his wedding day. I cried loudly inside the toilet of the hotel. No one was there to share my pain. I felt as the whole... world was in fire. Later, i also married, but never met him thereafter...........
The day before his wedding day i went to his place in gampaha. Everyone was busy, getting ready for the wedding. I was in a dreamy world, no hunger, no thirst and no sense of the sorounding at all. Every minute every second my heart got burnt with the sense of my boyfriends departure on the following day. In the evening we two went to the temple, no single word exchanged between us. Both are in deep sorrow and burning in pain. How many words., how many stories, how many laughs, how many cries have been exchanged between us during past six years, but now.. ...., only silent exchanges burnig in pain......, In the temple we did nothig, but crying hugged each other... no feeling who saw us, we never worried of that. Only tried to get the last smell of our six years love............, around 8pm we reached home and i went to the bed without having any dinner.
I was given a room to be shared with his brother. Sleep never came to me. I remembered everything, whole six years love as a romantic film...., no one to tell these , i only had to make silent tears as his brother could hear. I felt if i could stop the next day dawn, but i failed. Late in night, without knowing to me , i had gone to sleep. arly in the morning i felt some one slowly opening the door. I kept still and silent. Soon i felt the sweet smell of him, he gave me the last kiss of our lives.
Wedding was in biyagama village hotel. In the hotel i felt as i was in fire. I ran to the toilet of the hotel and cried loudly. I tried my maximum to avoid my eyes with him. Every time i saw him he was keeping his eyes at me. When he was close leave for honeymoon , i felt my heart was going to burst. Luckily one friend of both of us felt this. He came to me and asked whether i want to leave. I said yes. Without telling anyone we left the hotel from the rear gate
In the car i did nothing but crying. He stooped the car infront of gampaha station. There was one hour more for the train. He asked me whether i want to drink. I said no. Everything started to film in my mind. How we did shopping in gampaha town, how we wathched films, how we walked in the railway hands in hand, how we bathed in the ketawela anicut in weekends... every thing. I felt i fell from pan to fire. Luckily the train came and in a dreamy world i got into the train. My friend was waiting till the train disappeared.
Close to midnight i reached home. Still i dont have a clear memmory of those days. Later i also married. I was much brighter than him when we were in campus and i got through the final exam with a class. But now........, my friend and his wife are both consultants and my self being the suffered is still spending my life with the suffered of this country in a remote area in --------------- zone.
What i have to tell at the end is, not to involve in gay love. It will only bring sorrow to your life. But having a good gay friendship will be much benificial to your life As you can share all your feelings with yoUr gay friend, nothing to hide and sex........... mmmmmmmmmmmmm its upon you to decide. may be....... i mean..........................
කනිෂ්ක සොයුරානම් කියන්නේ ආදරය එපා කියලයි.ඒත් ආදරය අපි බලෙන් ඇති කර ගන්න දෙයක් නෙවෙයි නේද. ඉතින් ආදරය ඇතිවෙන එක අපිට නවත්තන්න පුලුවන්ද?
The day before his wedding day i went to his place in gampaha. Everyone was busy, getting ready for the wedding. I was in a dreamy world, no hunger, no thirst and no sense of the sorounding at all. Every minute every second my heart got burnt with the sense of my boyfriends departure on the following day. In the evening we two went to the temple, no single word exchanged between us. Both are in deep sorrow and burning in pain. How many words., how many stories, how many laughs, how many cries have been exchanged between us during past six years, but now.. ...., only silent exchanges burnig in pain......, In the temple we did nothig, but crying hugged each other... no feeling who saw us, we never worried of that. Only tried to get the last smell of our six years love............, around 8pm we reached home and i went to the bed without having any dinner.
I was given a room to be shared with his brother. Sleep never came to me. I remembered everything, whole six years love as a romantic film...., no one to tell these , i only had to make silent tears as his brother could hear. I felt if i could stop the next day dawn, but i failed. Late in night, without knowing to me , i had gone to sleep. arly in the morning i felt some one slowly opening the door. I kept still and silent. Soon i felt the sweet smell of him, he gave me the last kiss of our lives.
Wedding was in biyagama village hotel. In the hotel i felt as i was in fire. I ran to the toilet of the hotel and cried loudly. I tried my maximum to avoid my eyes with him. Every time i saw him he was keeping his eyes at me. When he was close leave for honeymoon , i felt my heart was going to burst. Luckily one friend of both of us felt this. He came to me and asked whether i want to leave. I said yes. Without telling anyone we left the hotel from the rear gate
In the car i did nothing but crying. He stooped the car infront of gampaha station. There was one hour more for the train. He asked me whether i want to drink. I said no. Everything started to film in my mind. How we did shopping in gampaha town, how we wathched films, how we walked in the railway hands in hand, how we bathed in the ketawela anicut in weekends... every thing. I felt i fell from pan to fire. Luckily the train came and in a dreamy world i got into the train. My friend was waiting till the train disappeared.
Close to midnight i reached home. Still i dont have a clear memmory of those days. Later i also married. I was much brighter than him when we were in campus and i got through the final exam with a class. But now........, my friend and his wife are both consultants and my self being the suffered is still spending my life with the suffered of this country in a remote area in --------------- zone.
What i have to tell at the end is, not to involve in gay love. It will only bring sorrow to your life. But having a good gay friendship will be much benificial to your life As you can share all your feelings with yoUr gay friend, nothing to hide and sex........... mmmmmmmmmmmmm its upon you to decide. may be....... i mean..........................
කනිෂ්ක සොයුරානම් කියන්නේ ආදරය එපා කියලයි.ඒත් ආදරය අපි බලෙන් ඇති කර ගන්න දෙයක් නෙවෙයි නේද. ඉතින් ආදරය ඇතිවෙන එක අපිට නවත්තන්න පුලුවන්ද?
